Falling Apart

I will be 49 in January. For some reason my body is determined to make me feel 100. I refuse to feel sorry for myself,but I must say it is hard. I must admit my husband does all he can to make things better. I have been in so much pain lately. He has been great and very understanding. He is in kidney failure, but still went to the hospital and docotr with me. I appreciate him greatly.. HE's right here even though i'm falling apart.