I do know I plan to start a new career selling supplemental insurance. I also plan to go back to school and become a Marriage and Family Therapist.
That takes care of my working life, but I am concerned about my love life. 50 years old is not a good age to be looking for love, but what else can I do?
God has put it on my heart that is time for me to let go of the past and move forward. I know he knows I cannot do it without love.
I don't care what you say I won't stay in a world without love.
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Monday, November 14, 2011
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Different
I feel different. My thoughts have shifted, my mind has changed about several things I once held in stone. I feel different. I do think the trip to Florida has a lot to do with it. During the weeks before I was to go, I found myself refusing to think about what was to come. I made a conscious decision not to anticipate and I am so glad I did.
My not needing to know, my lack of though towards what I thought I'd see or do, made it possible for me to be completely open to the experience. The entire time I succumbed to the wishes of others. Whatever they wanted to do, I did. I made no suggestions, I just went along. I very seldom, if ever do that. But, while in Florida, I did. I let go, for real.
Wow! Because of my ability to do that, I got a chance to see myself in a different light. I got to see that I am very balanced in the way I deal with others and I think that is why I have the appeal I do with certain individuals.
If you want things to be different, you have to want to be different.
My not needing to know, my lack of though towards what I thought I'd see or do, made it possible for me to be completely open to the experience. The entire time I succumbed to the wishes of others. Whatever they wanted to do, I did. I made no suggestions, I just went along. I very seldom, if ever do that. But, while in Florida, I did. I let go, for real.
Wow! Because of my ability to do that, I got a chance to see myself in a different light. I got to see that I am very balanced in the way I deal with others and I think that is why I have the appeal I do with certain individuals.
If you want things to be different, you have to want to be different.
Sunday, January 31, 2010
New To the World
My view is simple; I believe children should be taken care of by one of their parents for as long as they can before the age of 6. I have made extreme financial sacrifices to have this happen for my children.
I had my first child at 17, a straight A student, my mother and teachers where disappointed because I had gotten pregnant. The fact I decided not to attend college immediately after high school because I wanted to be the one to rear my daughter, really threw them off.
I am the oldest of five children. I recognized very early what I was missing and that was time with my mother. I always felt like I had to fight for her attention. I made a promise to myself if I ever had children, I would put ample space between them, so they had the impression of being the only child, but actually had the support and love of siblings. It worked for me.
My oldest turned 30 last year, my son will be 19 this April, and my youngest will be 14 in August. My relationship with each of them is remarkable. What is even more remarkable to me is that I figured this out at such an early age. I've given my children the essentials. My last two didn't walk until they were over 18 months old because they were always held. My youngest has never been in Toys-R-Us, because we had learned how keep her entertained. They got their time and where genuinely loved for who they are as people.
When we try to do too much, want too much, we tend to leave things behind because there truly is no way to successfully multi-task. So, if you are planning to have to children have a plan. Get your schooling done before you have them, or wait until they are able to express themselves verbally before you become distracted with too many activities. It is great to want to be involved, but we need to really look and make sure we are not using these activities to shun responsibility or to derail accountability.
Knowing who you are really helps, but is often the component lacking in many of us when we start families. We usually want to live the way we were raised whether consciously, or unconsciously. It is all about priorities. Sometimes kids come during times in our lives when we would rather be doing something else. To me, a child is a sign that everything is going to be alright, if we only let go and truly allow the Universe to guide our hearts and steps.
I had my first child at 17, a straight A student, my mother and teachers where disappointed because I had gotten pregnant. The fact I decided not to attend college immediately after high school because I wanted to be the one to rear my daughter, really threw them off.
I am the oldest of five children. I recognized very early what I was missing and that was time with my mother. I always felt like I had to fight for her attention. I made a promise to myself if I ever had children, I would put ample space between them, so they had the impression of being the only child, but actually had the support and love of siblings. It worked for me.
My oldest turned 30 last year, my son will be 19 this April, and my youngest will be 14 in August. My relationship with each of them is remarkable. What is even more remarkable to me is that I figured this out at such an early age. I've given my children the essentials. My last two didn't walk until they were over 18 months old because they were always held. My youngest has never been in Toys-R-Us, because we had learned how keep her entertained. They got their time and where genuinely loved for who they are as people.
When we try to do too much, want too much, we tend to leave things behind because there truly is no way to successfully multi-task. So, if you are planning to have to children have a plan. Get your schooling done before you have them, or wait until they are able to express themselves verbally before you become distracted with too many activities. It is great to want to be involved, but we need to really look and make sure we are not using these activities to shun responsibility or to derail accountability.
Knowing who you are really helps, but is often the component lacking in many of us when we start families. We usually want to live the way we were raised whether consciously, or unconsciously. It is all about priorities. Sometimes kids come during times in our lives when we would rather be doing something else. To me, a child is a sign that everything is going to be alright, if we only let go and truly allow the Universe to guide our hearts and steps.
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