Knowing the Truth

There is such a bitter sweetness to the truth. It stings ever so lightly until you accept it. Until you embrace the realness of it, you remain in pain, lost, numb, ignorant, fearful, alone. The truth is its own reward. No matter the consequence, if the truth caused it, in the end, it is right.

Running from the truth prolongs agony, causes dysfunction, delusion, and dissatisfaction. So many of us want to live a lie and expect something real. It is not enough to know what is right; you have to be able to apply this knowledge to your life in a way it will suit you best interest.

Too bad knowing the truth doesn't always change the problem. We must act upon whatever changes that need to be made once the truth is revealed. Not all truths require we take action, as much as they do that we take heed. Because all things develop in the mind, many cannot take heed of the truth, because they consistently dwell in the untruths that have held them captive for so long.

For a long time, I did not want to accept my husband really was the man I was supposed to be married to. We were so different. But then there was this something, I later learned to be a spiritual thang. It had nothing to do with me. My marriage is about glorifying God. Showing other that beauty can come out of bullshit, if the couple is will to get out of the way and claim God's will for their marriage.

My 31 Year Old-Part Two

My oldest has been accepted to one of the best and well-known schools in Kentucky, Spalding University. I am extremely proud of her. I graduated from Spalding in 2002 with a degree in Psychology. She is going for nursing.

Like I said yesterday she is a late bloomer, but has now found her stride and is going for it in her chosen career, which I pegged for her back when she was nine. I paid attention to her and her personality and knew nursing was for her.

I mentioned to her a few times that I thought she should go into nursing, but I never tried to force the idea on her. When she came the the conclusion herself, she came to me and asked me how I knew. I told her I watched her and discovered it.

We do our kids the best favor when we allow them to be who they are and develop on their own as individuals. I am glad I have been able to allow my children to be who they are without reservation.

Now, she is on the right path and will be the better for it.

49 and Just Fine

I am 49 today and I have come to understand what folk say when they think feel it. I really am one year from half of one hundred years old. When I think of it like that, I automatically feel I should have learned something worthwhile during my time here on earth. Being 49, I should have shared something of value and made somethine of use.

I have learned a lot and the most important is to have compassion for others. Sometimes when certains aspects, and concepts of life are easier for one to understand, they tend to believe it is the same for others. I had to learn to have compassion for those who just can't seem to get it. Some of us don't know who we are at 49. Some of still haven't learned the importance of sharing and patience. Many of us can't make our way, you know they can't contribute to society.

With knowing all of this, I could not let myself feel superior to another because I do. Instead, I have chosen to use what I have learned to help others. that really is the only way. I truly believe that learning to give and accept love is our only true mandate.

Thanks for all the well wishes and happy birthdays. I have never gotten so many. Peace, love, and soul to you all.